I’m in the lab right now writing my essay for tomorrow, 8 pages lit review on suicide, kill me, or I’ll do it myself.

But a strange memory just came across my head for no reason. I remember being in 7th grade we had the option to be in project adventure aka climb, solve puzzles do fun stuff. I remember one day everyone was trying hard to work together on some task where we had to put all our feet together to reach some certain height and I was the one who ended up solving it. ( not that it was a big deal, but at that moment I was really proud of myself) We ended up sitting in a circle afterwords everyone sweaty and fizzled from a silly task and the teacher had us sit Indian style and ask us who we thought good leaders were in the class. First off why would she single out people like that? Secondly I was confident I would be one of those people. I remember Chris Manhyem and some other random girl getting recognition for being great leaders and everyone agreed. The teacher than asked if anyone else felt like they were a leader. I remember being the only one to raise my hand and feeling very singled out. I had confidence back then and to now and it hasn’t changed but I never gave it a second thought. It just has me wondering, have I always viewed myself as a leader and just havent been a good one? Or was that just 7th grade drama, considering at that point I wasn’t ” cool or popular”.

It’s just a strange thought, personally I still look at myself as a leader but is that a positive or negative trait?